yeah ok lately i have fell deeper in love and cried it always ends up ok though i've just not had a really good day ! I hurt someone and didn't mean to, but i've came to the conclusion you never mean to hurt the people you love but yet you do with out knowing it !  I got flowers and a stuffed puppy haha ! I miss matt every second of the day! I really would live without him compared to every other guy i've cared for he just seems perfect so i get scared that i'm going to lose him easier, he has treated me better than anyone ever has and he def. has the most patience haha I wanna MP3 but i'm a poor ass and wantin another bike ; ) hopefully that works out ! Dads still gone he has been for like a week now : ( I really don't know what i would do without friends (i'd die) i wish it was summer oh and by the way 69 days left of school not counting hoildays and spring break! Well yesterday i learned to weld haha i can't wait to have that class next year but imma be the only girl :'(  I cried today alot well me and matt sorta got into it agian , mom is being a bitch, i watched the last episode of roseanne and it made me cry (not to sure why though) but mainly i felt like crap because i knew matt wasn't happy and thats really all i care about now sad in ways but true

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN LIFE

cracked me up

EDIT

I am agianst religion -you can hate me for it i don't care-

Me and Matt got into it

Everything is ok but this song described excalty what i felt like :

I'm gonna clean the house
I'm gonna fix the fence
In my final hours
I'm gonna tie up these loose ends

I wont leave a note
For anyone to find
Tomorrow they'll know
What I've done here tonight

[Chorus]
The drastic steps I'm takin'
Are just an act of desperation
I knew no one would miss me
So what the hell
I fought and lied I drank too much
Hurt every one I ever touched
Just how much I hurt you is hard to tell
This is not some kind of cry for help
Just good bye I wish you well
Because I love you
I'm gonna kill myself

Now who is that
In my easy chair
Now wait a minute
That's the old me sittin' there

And I thank God
The devil in me died
I stand before you now
A man changed and alive

[Chorus]
The drastic steps I'm takin'
Are just an act of desperation
I knew no one would miss me
So what the hell
I fought and lied I drank too much
Hurt every one I ever touched
Just how much I hurt you is hard to tell
This is not some kind of cry for help
Just good bye I wish you well
Because I love you
I have to kill myself

Gonna clean the house
Gonna fix that fence
In my final hours I'm gonna tie up these loose ends

Well yesterday was kinda fun! Well went to go ridin down chircos but i needed a spark plug Keefers and the Honda shop was closed for some reason I MEAN WTF so justin rode a lil and i went to matts :) I wanted to ride so bad it ain't funny But yea I came home and called matt and we talked over some stuff i wanted to do and nonsense but yea it worked out finally !

Today my stomach hurt so bad from PMS i didn't go to school , yeah it hurt! It easied off after i took med's but now i wanna go and watch justin ride i might if i'm allowed but imma go do something Later Later

<3 Matt